Thursday, January 04, 2007
so fucking tuppid...
i can't believe it... i'm so fucking silly... why i'm i doing so much for a girl who i know i can never be with... this is so silly of me... just one message and i woke up going through the net and the street directory looking for her... wtf lor and in my mind i knew even if i went down to help her she would also be just a friend, you know i wouldn't do a thing if you are just a friend but for you... i can somehow say its faithed lor i was having a bad dream and i woke up seeing her message beside my pollow... but what's the use i really starting to hate both of them, they are making me feel like a tuppid idiot... go to hell la, no more friendship no more family no more brotherhood... i want to heal my feeling and search for my soul but you two had to destroy everything, knowing i'm hurt and still trying to bend the rubber-band... knn thats it... for your information hui ying i call him many fucking time le and it none of my problem also...
your love is like a shadow at 2:40:00 AM
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Tuesday, January 02, 2007
This is what i saw in astrology... This two Zodiac are for two family members before i go MIA...
Gemini & Cancer
Cancer is the Sign of home and hearth, while Gemini is the thinker. Gemini can easily slip into the role of Cancer's knight in shining armor; Cancer returns that favor with their characteristic urge to protect the ones they love. Quality of home life is important to Cancer, and Gemini will be spoiled by their Cancer lover's hearty home cooking, soft bed and other creature comforts. Cancer is strongly intuitive and maintains an almost psychic connection with their loved ones, but can tend toward possessiveness and idealization of their Gemini partner. If Gemini just reassures Cancer that they're loved and cherished, all will go smoothly.
What's the best aspect of the Gemini-Cancer relationship? Once they realize they're allies, they can soar to great heights together. Gemini is always thinking ahead and Cancer is quietly supporting these ideas behind the scenes. Each partner's ability to provide what the other is lacking makes theirs a fulfilling relationship.
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Gemini & Sagittarius
Gemini and Sagittarius are great friends, besides being well-matched lovers. They share a deep understanding and a very similar life view, based on a general, refreshing optimism and enthusiasm. Sagittarius can sometimes be a bit too blunt, saying things without thinking beforehand about whether they'll hurt someone or not, but Gemini is a hardy sort and, like Sagittarius, can forgive and forget quickly. These two don't have time or the interest required to hold a grudge.
What's the best aspect of the Gemini-Sagittarius relationship? Their mutual interest in cultivating knowledge, utilizing intellect and turning it into action. They are well-matched in their enthusiasm, energy and drive. Common interests and similar personalities make them a compatible couple.
Cancer is the Sign of home and hearth, while Gemini is the thinker. Gemini can easily slip into the role of Cancer's knight in shining armor; Cancer returns that favor with their characteristic urge to protect the ones they love. Quality of home life is important to Cancer, and Gemini will be spoiled by their Cancer lover's hearty home cooking, soft bed and other creature comforts. Cancer is strongly intuitive and maintains an almost psychic connection with their loved ones, but can tend toward possessiveness and idealization of their Gemini partner. If Gemini just reassures Cancer that they're loved and cherished, all will go smoothly.
What's the best aspect of the Gemini-Cancer relationship? Once they realize they're allies, they can soar to great heights together. Gemini is always thinking ahead and Cancer is quietly supporting these ideas behind the scenes. Each partner's ability to provide what the other is lacking makes theirs a fulfilling relationship.
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Gemini & Sagittarius
Gemini and Sagittarius are great friends, besides being well-matched lovers. They share a deep understanding and a very similar life view, based on a general, refreshing optimism and enthusiasm. Sagittarius can sometimes be a bit too blunt, saying things without thinking beforehand about whether they'll hurt someone or not, but Gemini is a hardy sort and, like Sagittarius, can forgive and forget quickly. These two don't have time or the interest required to hold a grudge.
What's the best aspect of the Gemini-Sagittarius relationship? Their mutual interest in cultivating knowledge, utilizing intellect and turning it into action. They are well-matched in their enthusiasm, energy and drive. Common interests and similar personalities make them a compatible couple.
your love is like a shadow at 6:49:00 PM
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Why do i see forever in your eyes...
Well so much has happen these past few days... So much that I would like to type it out in this blog but is never easy... I guess this kind of things will need time to solve themselves out, I fear what my words would cause if I type it out here... All I know is my heart and mind is going in two ways, it's not thinking as one or should I say I have to much too save before giving everything up...
I guess everything in this world comes with a price, sometimes you get it cheaper(easier) and sometimes you get it more Expansive(harder) and sometime you just get it without paying a single cent... You know when that happens you will someday be paying twice the amount it will cost you , twice the hurt , twice the pain... So treasure what you have is all I can say never missing out even on the smallest chances in life that we have...
You and I have a life road, we met at a cross-junction, we waited together for the green light to turn, we spent seconds like minutes and minutes like hours... but fate it seems when it turn green, we walk out together and there it was, a light in two and a sound of roar, I jumped and push you away, telling you life is never easy... I believe in you because we are brothers and I will see you even if it's heaven or hell... Brotherhood means forever...
Anyways this post is for the past three days so it should be longer abit more... Added in my Elmo poems at the top... Hur hurx I know they're bad... This few days I was really very happy... Though it didn't seem much... We still went to a pub, visited the K-box, watched a movie, played pool and many more... Haha all bring back so much nice memories (Opps got some bad ones la but don’t write better cause all know she is a bitch)... Really enjoy it, thanks for the memories my beloved family... (Fire, ying, Ed)
Humpz... Xp
Anyways this post is for the past three days so it should be longer abit more... Added in my Elmo poems at the top... Hur hurx I know they're bad... This few days I was really very happy... Though it didn't seem much... We still went to a pub, visited the K-box, watched a movie, played pool and many more... Haha all bring back so much nice memories (Opps got some bad ones la but don’t write better cause all know she is a bitch)... Really enjoy it, thanks for the memories my beloved family... (Fire, ying, Ed)
Humpz... Xp
your love is like a shadow at 12:06:00 PM
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Wednesday, December 20, 2006
what else can memorys bring me besides sorrow and hate...
errr... Stupid rain, been raining seens sunday morning... Going to fall sick soon i belive... rr rr chu... Errr Sianx, anyway my lao po from malaysia is coming back tomorrow... Yipee... hope i have time to pei her... Hehe... Dont know if she got buy anything back for me this christmas ma? Hmmm... Oh yes... Wonder how she look like in the dress i chose for her... hehe beautiful ofcouse...
haix... My dumbass dear today late for work again... Wth lor he damm stupid lei, he came up with a dumb reason of heavy rain then call me to book a cab for him... Make me scold him upside down sia... So noob Xp... Then when i told him there was a 4 dollars charge he tio shock tio liao, he still thought it was only a dollar charge... Yox my dear this is singapore not malaysia $%^&*(... I dont know la his supervisor like one horny lady also dont know which part she so attracted to him... Anyway it's just his luck that the supervisor say she will cover for him so he never tio warning lor or not he can GG liao, -see you back in malaysia... hee...
Well lesson 30 liao finally... Booked my TP le... 21st march 2007... heng heng one time pass ba... wasted so much time le... Haiz or not now can drive out dont need to scare liao... oh if you all didn't know the last time i drove tio speed camera... fark $%^&* knn so suay... rr rr chu... Err better go sleep...
Xp...
haix... My dumbass dear today late for work again... Wth lor he damm stupid lei, he came up with a dumb reason of heavy rain then call me to book a cab for him... Make me scold him upside down sia... So noob Xp... Then when i told him there was a 4 dollars charge he tio shock tio liao, he still thought it was only a dollar charge... Yox my dear this is singapore not malaysia $%^&*(... I dont know la his supervisor like one horny lady also dont know which part she so attracted to him... Anyway it's just his luck that the supervisor say she will cover for him so he never tio warning lor or not he can GG liao, -see you back in malaysia... hee...
Well lesson 30 liao finally... Booked my TP le... 21st march 2007... heng heng one time pass ba... wasted so much time le... Haiz or not now can drive out dont need to scare liao... oh if you all didn't know the last time i drove tio speed camera... fark $%^&* knn so suay... rr rr chu... Err better go sleep...
Xp...
your love is like a shadow at 12:04:00 AM
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Monday, December 18, 2006
why are we creating memorys that will hurt us it the end...
Woox... so tired... just finish from a long day's work... Had so much document to clear up before christmas comes and before the block leaves... hehe... i just wonder what would christmas bring me this year... hmmm...
Oh you know what... i heard that, that day when i went to sentosa she saw me there... Omg i can't believe i miss it... shit man i actually had a chance see her... i knew it lor i had that feeling i would see her... "fark" when i was walking to the 7 eleven i stop by every tram stop and looked around, having that funny feeling lor... Omg everytime i think she is near i would think of her... what the hell is happening to me... errr... i just dont know, been asking myself lately even if i see her what else is there i can do? haiz... i really dont know... i hate her the most but i also love her the most... never tot i would say this but what else is there to hide?
anyway the 3 on 3 was pastpone due to rain on sunday... haiz was really looking forward to playing and getting champion... haha... so if you guys want to see me play... plz come down to thomson CC on the 7th to support me okay... thkx...
Oh you know what... i heard that, that day when i went to sentosa she saw me there... Omg i can't believe i miss it... shit man i actually had a chance see her... i knew it lor i had that feeling i would see her... "fark" when i was walking to the 7 eleven i stop by every tram stop and looked around, having that funny feeling lor... Omg everytime i think she is near i would think of her... what the hell is happening to me... errr... i just dont know, been asking myself lately even if i see her what else is there i can do? haiz... i really dont know... i hate her the most but i also love her the most... never tot i would say this but what else is there to hide?
anyway the 3 on 3 was pastpone due to rain on sunday... haiz was really looking forward to playing and getting champion... haha... so if you guys want to see me play... plz come down to thomson CC on the 7th to support me okay... thkx...
your love is like a shadow at 10:39:00 PM
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Sunday, December 17, 2006
Back from messing around, going missing...
Omg i'm so sorrie everyone, i know i heaven been blogging lately... So sorrie, anyway it's mainly due to the reconstruction of my rooom... Changed the window grids, done by the HDB people, who make my room so damm dusty lor... Hmmrp... Hur hurx anyway i reposition all my room stuff, looks so much cleaner liao...
I guess i have to write some catching up on this blog, left out so much le... But so much has happen this past few weeks; went back to work le, met my long lose mei's and friends, went to MOS with my schoolmates and friends and ofcouse cannot leave out, went to malaysia with my xiao long jie ( spent many long sleepless nightz there )... hehe
Haiz but all seem so sudden, like some how planned or faith to be... Just pop up like that, just when i need friends beside me the most... But even so, still alittle heart broken... i just wonderful when will this pain ever stop, will i ever be free of this sorrow... Someone free me... Sob sobx...
Why do people not treasure the good things in life... why can't i see through a blackboard which is clean...
I guess i have to write some catching up on this blog, left out so much le... But so much has happen this past few weeks; went back to work le, met my long lose mei's and friends, went to MOS with my schoolmates and friends and ofcouse cannot leave out, went to malaysia with my xiao long jie ( spent many long sleepless nightz there )... hehe
Haiz but all seem so sudden, like some how planned or faith to be... Just pop up like that, just when i need friends beside me the most... But even so, still alittle heart broken... i just wonderful when will this pain ever stop, will i ever be free of this sorrow... Someone free me... Sob sobx...
Why do people not treasure the good things in life... why can't i see through a blackboard which is clean...
your love is like a shadow at 12:57:00 AM
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Monday, November 13, 2006
Walk with m3 aNyoNe? Feeling Sick...
Omg feeling so sick now... Errrr dumb nose… I got a feeling a fever is coming soon… hais… met out with fire just now for dinner… We went all the way to gelyang to eat the well known tim sum and yu tao lolz… and of course to buy some cigg too… Haha… Then had no choice have to go home, cause both of us also sick… Haiz both also having running nose but i think i got abit of cough too... Sianz... Everything i have running nose my tears also start falling de, so f**ked up feeling like crying for nothing... lolx... Head feeling so heavy now… I think me going to sleep liao… Nitez everyone…
your love is like a shadow at 12:33:00 AM
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
A loNg we3k... tRyiNg t0 r3laX...
Wahaha... Been so long since the last time I blogged le... Hurhur so many things happened over the week, hais don’t know where to start typing also... Oh I never mention that I cut my hair liao… Whoa a lot of people say I look very ah beng in this hairstyle plus they say I wear long sleeve shirt look like ah beng head… lolz…
Oh this week was havoc in the night… Also one of the most tired weeks I have ever been through… Wa I think my mom and dad are going to kick me out of the house liao… ( Anyone got space for me to stay) Almost the whole week not at home sia, just when home to change…
Oh this week was havoc in the night… Also one of the most tired weeks I have ever been through… Wa I think my mom and dad are going to kick me out of the house liao… ( Anyone got space for me to stay) Almost the whole week not at home sia, just when home to change…
From Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday went to that dumb Fredrick house to stay, cause he said his parents when for holidays and only left him at home very sianz… Buang la he, I tell you now then I know he is really a very bad person lor, don’t know how to exlplain to you all but are all I can say is that he treats his maid really f**king bad loh, wa plus that dog of his so dumb and horny lor I seat at the sofa watching tv keep hugging me doing the SM position sia wa so f**ked up… Sianz 1st time got the kind of feeling of give dog rape sia… lolz… Then still played with his dad’s bike, you should have looked at his dumb face scare like f**ck don’t know what sia… Haha lucky I pro or his dad’s bike would end up like trash lor… So funny lor he don’t even know how to start his dad bike still tell his dad say he know… “Aa how ar can call who to help”… haha… ( in the end I was the one who started it for him… Noob)
Then Thursday night, Nb received a call from fire saying that he got a lot of homework to do and project need to hand-up want to chiong finish everything by that night… Say go my house there the new MacDonald’s to do… Nb I know I should not have believed him lor, say go there study; go there play the wireless lor… Nb study my lan, less than 30 minutes go buy food then smoke then play laptop liao buang la… He still dare to say my teacher tell me to do proper this last term… lolz… Wa turn up very tired the next day at office… bang shot dead on the table sia lolz... my colleagues ask me where I go chiong sia haha…
Then Friday, I tot that I could finally go home today to have some rest after meeting fire and SJ with the gang… Whoa who knows after we caught a movie at cineleisure we were heading straight down to yishun (SJ Hse)... Wa that dumb SJ makes us walk so long to his house… bang... Wa have to say ar his house super the mass sia… but don’t know why ar mass till I and fire slept from 4am that Saturday morning to 7.30pm that evening… Haha can become sleep god liao… and now that SJ siao liao got hook to watching bleach after that day I was at his house watching the latest episode… Haha went home finally in a taxi…
Reach home… Bom bom liao, 2 hours later fire call again… Ya what, he tells me to go chiong… I say you siao ar just reach home lei… Lolz he says got what chio bu going tell me go haha… In the end I never go but he when… During the night he message me and said lucky you never come… hahaha… so dumb somehow I knew it… So woke up today in the afternoon to post a quick update on what happen this week… Will be more detail in the future post… Hahaha… have to go…
Then Friday, I tot that I could finally go home today to have some rest after meeting fire and SJ with the gang… Whoa who knows after we caught a movie at cineleisure we were heading straight down to yishun (SJ Hse)... Wa that dumb SJ makes us walk so long to his house… bang... Wa have to say ar his house super the mass sia… but don’t know why ar mass till I and fire slept from 4am that Saturday morning to 7.30pm that evening… Haha can become sleep god liao… and now that SJ siao liao got hook to watching bleach after that day I was at his house watching the latest episode… Haha went home finally in a taxi…
Reach home… Bom bom liao, 2 hours later fire call again… Ya what, he tells me to go chiong… I say you siao ar just reach home lei… Lolz he says got what chio bu going tell me go haha… In the end I never go but he when… During the night he message me and said lucky you never come… hahaha… so dumb somehow I knew it… So woke up today in the afternoon to post a quick update on what happen this week… Will be more detail in the future post… Hahaha… have to go…
your love is like a shadow at 1:32:00 PM
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Sunday, October 29, 2006
0nCe up0n a tiMe... i b3|iev3d...
Haiz how should I start this, I've never wrote a diary or a blog of myself before. So this is my very first, Always through of this kind of things as dumb, stupid and a waste of time. But lately the stress level has really to its peak high and I’m really starting to feeling very sad and hurt inside. Really don’t know who I should talk too now or who i'm left with to talk to… Well I use to believe that there was nothing to think about once things where done, this here is sure a first to everything…You know there used to be a saying that i believed
“life isn't simple, you made choices and you never look back on them”, well i think no one gives a damn…
your love is like a shadow at 10:02:00 PM
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